A Two-Hour Flurry of Excitement
Thursday, December 11, 2008 at 01:17PM I was contacted Wednesday about a contract at a university in New York City and I admit, I got excited. I can’t tell you the last time I got this excited. I didn’t have the job or anything, but just the thought of six months within walking or underground riding distance of Manhattan. I’ve been working uneventfully in Plainfield, Indiana, since May, so you can imagine my thirst for ANYTHING, SOMETHING, exciting to happen.
Besides, this is what I've been waiting for. Work opportunities in other towns to expand my horizons and hone up my travelin’ gal skilz, to see how well I do venturing out into mobility. Then, if all goes well, (which I think it will, I’m a pretty strong kid) I can venture a little more, then a little more and a little more after that, until I feel in-the-know enough to spend some time abroad. Like in Canada, maybe.
And then it all hit me. The dog. My current contract. My current clients here in town. The hourly rate plus expenses hovering right around my bottom line. Six hours a week about an airplane or an airport. A whole lot of people. A whole lot of the time.
So, I passed on pursuing it any further. It was the right decision for right now. Had it been for only three months and next fall, I think I would have tried harder to go (had I been selected, of course). I like to think so, anyway.
My numeroscope predicted two things this week: (1) a financial windfall and (2) a new opportunity and direction from unexpected, more creative, sources.
I am ready to receive, Universe. I am ready and willing and able to receive. (And, while I’m being bold, about #1, maybe You could you make it tax-free, and about #2, maybe You could make it the second most expensive city in the country next time? *Hopefully, sarcasm won't affect my reception?)
I'm forever grateful. And did I say ready to receive?
Reader Comments (2)
I read your post with growing excitement! What a cool thing! NYC - and I can see how this would stretch you to working remotely and travel and all that stuff you want...
Then my heart sunk when I saw you declined it. I respect that this felt right for you and I want to challenge you a little bit. Know that I always hesitate to offer advice but I just can't help myself here.
Okay, here's what I know from taking leaps and helping others do the same:
We get all excited about an opportunity. Then, all too quickly, the left brain rushes in with the logistical details: the dog, the current contracts, etc.
It's not that these things aren't important. They of course need to be addressed. And, I believe that we need more time to feel into the dream. To look at it from our values: what about this opportunity reflects my values, my goals, my recent calls for help and guidance? How does this fit into what you want and want to manifest?
If you see a match (even if you are scared dookie-less) then I say go for it.
The logistics will work themselves out. I know this, because in the leap I took in May, I had an enormous amount of details to work out. One thing that surprised me about this year was how easy it was to handle all that and to work remotely. Like, amazingly easy.
You asked for the Universe to give you opportunities. You said this is what you have been waiting for. I like that you got more specific about what you wanted.
So, next time, maybe spend a little more time seeing if this is a match from the right brain before the left brain tries to figure it out. If it's right for you at heart, the details will be taken care of.
So there. My two cents, take them or leave them. I hope it's helpful!
Thank you for the encouraging post! And I think you might be right, because I have a feeling this may one of the moments I look back on and wonder “what if”. If only it had been a slightly less intimidating town or length of time, if only the dog sitter wouldn’t have cut into my profit margin, if only this and if only that pale in comparison to “what if I had gone and loved every minute of it”.
I think the last decade of operating from worry has become a huge self-imposed obstacle I need to overcome. I really appreciate your approach – to look at it from a values standpoint. I’m a firm believer that once a person is on their spiritual and gifted path, everything else falls into place. Just like your journey! Funny (not so much) how I didn't apply it to myself.
Okay, got it. Next time, I think it through entirely differently. Thank you so much!!
Karen